Exhausting week...dreamcatcher

I have been feeling so lethargic, fatigued and really so tired this whole week. It must have been due to that time of the month and also it must be the workload. I was on medical leave on Monday therefore my week started on Tuesday. Beside the fantastic workload that is waiting for me there is also some other personal things. I have not  been feeling too good and today i can feel my tonsils are swollen. Is it due to the weather or i have not been drinking a lot of water (i assume the later) and today. Yes, today mark the date Feb 23, I found out i need to wear glasses. My left eye is 125 and my right eye is 75. There goes my perfect eyesight. Guess, need to eat more carrot or maybe its too late now. I am sad...


There's a lot of things to share but my eyes are currently jealous with the affair i have with my laptop so it's already half closed while i'm typing this blog. Pardon the typo if there's any. 


Let me start with Tuesday, there nothing much except that I'm that busy and I did find time to go to gym alone. Let me tell you, working out alone is definitely boring out of my skull! Due to the boredom, you intend to feel you have working out decade ago but in actual fact it is only 5 minutes. So let say, I did a pit stop at the gym for a short while.


Wednesday came and went just like that and yes it's boring. i just realize how boring i am this week and plus how depressing I am. I know it's silly but i am so depressed the fact that my birthday is so near and i am getting too old. I'm 31 next week and there is a lot (believe me, a lot) That I need to achieve before turning another new leaf. I don't want to be an old dry leaf that serve no purpose. I have been thinking really hard, is it possible to achieve so many in the shortest time? Will it happened?  I wish i could turn back the time, but aren't everyone said the same thing? 


Today 23rd Feb 2012, we met at Oiso, thanks girls for remembering the day and for making this annual event for me. I know we know each other not more that 3 years but the bonding we have it feels a lot more than 3 years. You have been the best friend anyone could ever have. I am so blessed to have known all of you and to have you as my friends, mentor and most of all mini mama! All the years will not gone by easily without all your love and support. Thanks for the treat today. I really enjoy our time together. 


Thanks so much for being so understanding. I know we have our differences and I'm glad we always find a way to find our similarity. Thanks for always believe in me as I believe in you. I love you, girls! hope this friendship last a thousand more years to come. *hugs*

And, right now I can feel my tonsils is not getting any better. I better stop now. Guess, today is the same like yesterday , no assignment to be done. Pity me! 


This is the only picture i could find with the four of us during Kiew2 birthday last 2 years. 

30 going to 31

Well, yes it is actually depressing to even remember I am actually 30 years old last year. That was last year! and this year the age will be 1 year more. How depressing is that? less then 10 years, I'm gonna be freaking 40 uolls! They keep telling age is just a number. Yes, to whoever said that but not to me... age is not just a number. Age means is how wise you will be in making choices, decisions or any of that sort. The more you age, the wiser you must be. Am I? 


Honestly, i could not answer that. I think I did make some bad choices, wrong decisions and yes some right ones. But I learn from it. I'm still the same me guess older me. I still could not believe it will be less than a week I will be leaving this age and I will be entering new age, new phase of my life. 


30 have been giving me so much i could not bring everything with me. Some will be left as memories, some will be with me. I want to leave this age as wise as i could be, tho' i know i sometimes could be annoying spoiled brat but i wish i will change for the better and i could face every obstacle calmer and with positive thought! 

17th Feb, tho it is still 11 days away... Thanks friends for being there for me. For taking your time off and celebrating the day with me and Intan. We could never thank you enough. We might not be as closest, we might fight from time to time, we might disagree, we might shout at each other but I know we will have each other back when in need. Thanks girls! Thanks for all the gift, the cakes and the gossips! 


Thanks for the love, the friendship and more importantly thanks for being there after all this years. 15 years and still counting... may we last forever and grew old together. Love you, girls! 

Heavenly getaway...The Dusun

Well it feel like forever that I have not been out from KL. Well, I lied... I have been out of KL every month just that been forever that i don't travel. Well, I lied again. I just came back from Medan on December. It actually just 2 months and yes, I missed holiday. I missed travel. Tho' it's just a short trip. 


Well, we have been planning for months. not actually months. But the place that we want was fully booked therefore we have to go to plan B. Find alternatives! After a lot of ideas, rejected ideas, accepted but later rejected. Believe me, there is a lot! Sha found out about this heaven. 


Located more or less one hour drive from KL, The Dusun located in Pantai area (well, they don't have beach here. The place name is Pantai) It is befor e Jelebu, Negeri Sembilan (sorry if I'm wrong i'm bad with direction). The place is called the Dusun as it is an orchard surrounded with hills and mountain. The view is breathtaking and heavenly. I have never seen so many stars at night and you could seat outside the balcony and mesmerize by it. 


We went for a night but it the place have provide all the peace and serenity that I need. I need to getaway and yes, i did eventho' for a night. With a place like The Dusun you could just forget and leave all your problem at the main gate. The road to this place is not tremendously as fascinating as the view but we could not complaint more. In fact, there is nothing to complaint about. The owner and her daughter are very welcoming and warm, we felt like a family. For durian lovers, this place is surrounded by durian trees you could smell it from far. Well, if you could find any durian here it's yours! I did! We found one but I'm not avid durian lover and the durian have fell more than 2 days but the point is we find one durian! yeay! 


We stayed in newly built Sora house which could accomodate 5 pax. (Mind you, they don't allowed extra guest as they don't want people to sleep on the floor) The house is modern house with spacious kitchen, bathroom, balcony and yes, everything! 


There is waterfall, I mean teeny mini waterfall 20 minutes walks from this place (if you are lost, like us it will take more than that ;p) It's been more than a year or maybe 2, I did not swim in the river. But this river, i could not resist. It's so cold, you need to try it after-all half of my body is already in. We did not took a lot of pictures. But this is all that been filtered and for public ahah! Oh, i forgot to tell you, our journey to the waterfall been accompanied by FOC tour guide, the owner dog. I am scared of dogs and still am but this dog is really good at what it's doing (the dog is on the top picture). I have my guardian angel, so i know I'll be safe.... :D and yes, he's not superman ;p 


In short, I have fall in love at first sight with this place and i will definitely come back. Try to go there at least once and believe me you will also fall for it same as I did. 

The path lead to pool

Kitchen and dining

Dining area. Look at the view from here...

Breakfasting!

Mini waterfall. Ain't it?

Breathtakingly beautiful

The durian flower, i think? 

* Picture credit to, Mr. Photog Balan! Thanksie... Do visit his flickr site for more photos uolls!

I am that stupid...

For the past months, I have been feeling something strange. Tho' i keep telling myself it will go away but yet the feeling is still there. It keeps growing and I don't think i am able to handle it. Blame me. Its been more than 8 years I have not been feeling like this. I have never been so helpless, so weak. I hate this. Yes, I think I am falling in love with someone.  


However, hard the fall maybe that person have no idea that I am falling for him. Duh! Yes, I know...It's stupid and it might hurt. But well, who could stop love? I've tried and i failed. I have been trying, believe me...It is not a wise idea to fall head over heel to someone that doesn't know your existence. It is wrong. Totally wrong. 


Who knows? He might have someone right now. Someone he deeply in love too. Love is blind and I am blind. I don't know how I fall but it happened and I could not think for a reason for me to fall for him. We are not in the same circle, heck, we are not even in the same office. This is strange. But who need a reason to love? I know i might not succeed. I know it is impossible to reach for the stars. I know he might never know me and maybe will never do. But hey, that is taking chances! (and being stupid, I guess) 


Well,  the point is I have never have this feeling for 8 years and now i have fallen for someone who don't know my existence. How irony is that? I might need to get my brain check. I'm heartbroken without he even know it. Yes, I am that stupid....