I have not been writing since forever... I have to admit I am actually missing it...damn a lot! Tho' I'm not much of a writer but I think it's ok actually for my own reading and whoever actually nice enough to read it.
A lot has been happening since a month ago. My dad's cat Lilo is finally pregnant and now is waiting to give birth...cepat la lilo..excited ni...well until this blog is written she is still pregnant and still has not officially become mommy yet. Cepat la Lilo...
My sister? She is actually adjusting well with married life. I guess she's born with it. Well, as for me... I am still adjusting life without her...and I think I'm coping well with it. I have been asked about marriage more often now since my sister married and my brother is on the way to be married. My answer is simple...I am not ready just yet and also I don't have anybody...Well, i think even if I have someone it's still the same. I am not ready to take this heavy commitment of sharing my life with someone else. Maybe not just yet.
Well, I know at this age I actually already been married at least 3 years but as people says age is just a number...and if you feel you are not ready you just not ready...so I do hope people stop asking such questions. You know I'm actually ready when you receive my invitation card. Hopefully...
My brother? Well, 70% of his wedding preparations is actually done. His fiancee, I am actually been trying to accept her into our family and cause I know I have to actually give her this chance and being fair to him. Well, I also love my brother so I sacrifice this much for him. He has been helping me a lot all this while. Not only me, actually our family. He been there for so many things until my parents mistaken him as their first child and i'm the second child...see how important he is...
So as his sister and the one he always share stories with since our younger days...I let my guard down and I accept his fiancee to my life and to my family life. I think she is still trying to cope with it. She's 20 and you can expect her to be childish in certain ways.
For this past few weeks I have been having strong feeling to start covering my head/wearing hijab (tudung in malay). I think it might be the time for me to open a new book and start to head for improvement. Major improvement. I need to improvise and i need to start a new. I don't want to be the same ol' me. I want to be the new me. I'm getting older and hopefully i'll be getting wiser. Insyallah. And I do hope,I'll be on the right path.
Since the spread of the deadly virus AH1N1, hope everone will be more cautious, wear mask and take care of your own cleanliness. Let's pray we could prevent this virus from spreading and killing more very soon.
