Thursday, May 29

Penang...

We have extra cuti on Wesak day. Cannot go back to Malacca. My mom busy with her 'family' meeting. Tah apa yang sibuk sangat nak dimeetingkan...we make a decision....

Penang, here we come!!!!!

Nice place, well tho' not that very very very very exciting but the idea of holidaying with friends. We make it memorably exciting journey, lostness and tiredness. Everything in one...it makes it enjoyable.

Picture...still in the camera. I'll definitely post it once I have the time.

Now, just read my above craps and thots!

Wednesday, May 28

Do I ?


First, I have to admit. I am not a good writer. Yes, I am totally not! oh, how I wish I could just write something. Something so simple but meaningful, interesting and just me. I don't know. Am I pushing myself too hard? Or it is just me? Do I need to have Einstein brain just to write? To jot down a piece of thought here and there? I believe, I just need to use a little bit more of creativity. But can I find it in me? Do I have it?

Sometimes, I want to write and I even logged in the blog page but suddenly everything gone. It's just gone. I can't even write my own essay. I can't elaborate points, I can just stick to one point and that's it. Oh, help me god! I even failed my thesis because of this! My lecturers have written the same thing on all the essay I've done. No, it is not only one lecturer...it is three!!! Yess, three!

I want to crack open my brain and peek inside. See if I am able to repair anything, but well I am a human being...Idiot!

But, the best part is...I do not lost my hope. It's still there, high on the pedestal. I know someday, somehow, I will do it! I know I can.


Can't you just admire my determination?

But, do i ...will i still have the same spirit when the moment came?

Monday, May 26

Just Wait...

Feel like blogging but maybe a bit late....Just too tired to type! Hell, wait a bit late...I'll post something up. Promise...

Monday, May 5

Just that



Last week been a very tiring week for our office. We have moved office not far just one more level up. Previously it is 1 unit and now becomes 2 units including our sister comany who will be doing production and entertainment. Nothing that I can elaborate. Nothing to share now.

Moving, everybody needs to make a move in life. We move when everything get static or doesn't even move. We moved when we are bored. We moved forward, backward and everyway we can. We move to be better and we moved because we must.

I believe when we move something in life it is for the better. I believe we moved because we want to get better and be better.I have moved, a lot of time infact. I know damn well, my life is better now because the move I made in previous days.

I have enjoyed from the morning till dawn, dawn till dusk. I have done that. I have live a life with nothing to do. Just sit at home, go out, have fun, and same thing again and again for three years. I have wasted my father's hard earned money a lot of times and I never regret.

But it's all in the past, I have moved since then. I am not proud of the life i had before but at least i know, when I'm old, I will not think "Shit, i shud've done that". Yes, I have wasted a little bit of my life but I am satisfied for I can now be me. What I am today.

At least I know now, it is time for me to sit at home, watching TV, laugh at my family stupid jokes, cries when there are need to, be there whenever it is good and bad times. I am not anti social but I choose to be one. I have gone through a lot of pain and bad times till i feel like I don't need any friend now and I don't have to trust my friends. All i need is my family. They will surely be there when I need then the most, vice versa.

Yes, I know I've been mean but no. I don't believe such things as loyal friends. No matter how close people be, there will always be things that they will not tell you, things that they kept as a secret and when you know, it will hurt you. Most of the time from someone else.

There are alot of hypocrites in this world. I know now how careful people be they will somehow step on something they trying to avoid.

For that, I have to be extra careful living in the world full of disguise, hate and greed.

It's just that...