Friday is quiet...

Today is Friday, December 26th 2008. For those celebrated Christmas yesterday, hope you enjoy every moment of this season of giving.

I must say, even though I am not celebrating Christmas, watching the movies during Christmas day I have been influence on the existence of santa. Wonder where I'll be put in this year, naughty or nice list?

Isn't it nice to have a santa that can give you everything you dream of? Be it a barbie or a huuuuuugeee teddy bear that you could not even hug. But of course, there is no santa and there is no man entering your house through the chimney except if you have a chimney that can fit a man you might woke up with a burglar inside your house.

I wish life is as simple as that. I wish life is just beautiful wheneve we wake up in the morning. I wish life is easy peasy. But no, life is not beautiful and we could not expect we woke up every morning with fresh breath, beautiful smile and without hangover from last night drinking.

Life is full of lies, jealousy, manipulation and selfishness. We must admit even the nicest ol' goody two shoes have this bad attitude stashed in their heart. I admit, I do have this and I believe everbody has. It only a matter whether you want to show it or not.

I wanted to leave 2008 by remembering all the sweet little things that happen and I wanted to throw every single bitterness behind. I know, it is impossible to forget but at least I want to store it somewhere and hoping I could forget about it forever.

I will post a blog about new year but not in this blog. This blogs was written out of boredom and sleepless night I have for the past few days. Am I imsomniac?

Wedding Daze...Puzzled?

I'm so in the mood for wedding. Well, fortunately not for me but for my beloved sister. Yes, it is still a long way to go. It planned to be in June next year but the feeling is already here, NOW!

Wawa and me have taken the responsibility to organise the wedding. Not that we have a lot of experience but we are trying. We want the wedding to be simple but memorable thus the song choice of course also important to make the guest feeling that they also in love.

We were in Dewan Tun Rahah yesterday observing the venue and what I can say, if the ballroom is the chosen one. I have no complaint. It is absolutely stunning and so kena with our theme.

We want the wedding fill with flowers, candles and love...I'm writing like it is my wedding but my sister have given me her whole trust to organise her wedding that she is accepting all of our suggestions. Thank god, I don't have a fussy sister.

Well, this is the first sibling who is getting married hence that's why it is so....happening!!

Well, there's one problem. Only one but a major one! As some of you readers might know, my parent have divorce for the last 10 years. Having a stone headed mom make us really in dilemma. This is the first family members getting married (our family) so it is important that my mom attend that celebration. But as most of the friends, family and also groom family in KL we decided the event to be in KL instead of her hometown.

I think this is fair since the nikah performance will be in Malacca her hometown. But, NO! She could not accept this. She want everything to be in Malacca which is now not fair for the other side of family, my dad! She even saiid that she will not be attending the wedding because of this. Btw, my brother engangement day was held in Malacca which is sadly, my dad has not been informed. Sad, isn't it?

It is so sad and devastated to see my sister have to go through this situation and it is sad that my mom did not put herself in her situation. Financial wise and feeling wise.

For me, you have been divorce, yes! Your heart broken, yes! but it was 10 years ago for god sake. Fine, if you could not forget about it. But is it fair to make your child a victim. I think this is what they say, when parents divorce the children will be the victim.

Compromise is always needed. Yes, we understand her feeling but she too need to understand about my sister feeling. I am sad and devastated. We have tried a lot but we still could not see the way out. I hope somebody or anybody can tell me what to do!!!

My sister need our mom to be there and to open her heart for once...

I'm stuck at the dead end road.

My New old Babies

I did blog about my new babies but I believe I have not show it to anybody yet. Here the pics that I promise



Dido born 11th October 2008



Fido born 11th October 2008



Their 1st food



With Mommy Lilo

New Year Post Depression Syndrome

hi there, yes I'm pretty much alive and kicking! But maybe not so alive in this blogging world. Yes, I admit that I am not a blogger material. Let alone to be someone can constantly share their thought. I'm just a pitiful bored loner who is very lazy to type.

I did wrote last month that I have resigned from my long time work. Yes, at one point I did think that I'll be there working forever but... I think the pressure after four years is suddenly become so unbearable. I could not and I would not want to imagine.

This is the proof I am so tense that I made a foooool of myself



So, I decided to get out of that red zone and go back to my sanity. And here I am, after serving my month notice. I woke up late everyday, got nothing to do and make a fool of myself at home. So, what am I complaining? Nothing, I am completely at ease.

Wait, no... I actually complaining. I need something to make me busy. I need something to make me occupied. The old job, yes they call me back and all but for now I need to lay it somewhere behind my mind. I don't think I'm up for the old job that I left.

meantime, I will try to occupy myself with lots lots lots of movies.

Tadaaa

Ziryab Gala Dinner

Remember last July I did mentioned about this event? Yes, the event is here now.

For those who in love with Arabic music, you must love Nawal and Abdullah Roweished... thus do make yourself free on 13th December 2008 for their first ever appearance in Malaysia.

For any enquiries, please call RPE office at 03-2031 6606/2031 1606.

Adios!

Where Have I been?

I have been here, there and everywhere. I have been busy, lazy and crazy. I think this have got to do with post resignation syndrome. After you have resign for certain perion of time and you are still not working, you then will develop a handful amount of lazyness bacteria.

And I have been infected. I am lazy. Very lazy. I can doze off while looking at the computer or worst, even when I am actually typing something. I need to pull myself together. I hate myself this way. Even looking at the mirror at my own self makes me disgusted.

Wake me up, please! I need to get out of this lazy state of mind.

BTw, Khadijah Ibrahim concert in Philharmonic was awesome!!!! I love every second of it!

I'm Back!!

Oh, kill me for abandon this blog of mine.

I admit life been to busy and time is too jealous of me it take away all the freedom I have to be able to write. In a simple understandable word, I'm too busy even to check my mailbox.

There are a lot of things happening, the not so good things, I have resigned from my 4 years job. Why? It's because of me. I feel I'm going nowhere and I cant's stand doing the same thing, looking the same work. I need a breath of fresh air. I need something to get me going. I need some adventure. Not that I have any job now. To tell you the truth, I'm still living the moment. Let me rest for a while. Let me be a lazy bone for a moment. I need that before I start my new fully rested engine. Probably new year is the best time to run full speed huh?

The good news, I have just addopted two little cute kittens. I'm a mommy now!!! Yes, I know but I dont have any husband for me to be able to have my own babies and I don't like to take care other people kids, so I adopt 2 kittens. And, these two are enough to keep me occupied.

Now, before going back to working I must complete my license (Yes, driving license isn't it a pity? I'm 27 and still have not been able to drive) and most importantly I have to register for my 2nd sem that I have missed.

Oh, by the way I have just came back from beautiful Indonesia and having a blast with my fren and my abah. I wanted to post the pics but it's not with me. Cipah, please let me have the pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Till then, I need to go and feed my babies!

Raya 2008

It's been +/- 2 weeks since my last blog. Tho' my last blog is a short one but it is still a blog...:p.

We or muslim celebrated Aidilfitri or Eid on 1st of October this year. Yes, it is still wonderful, the gathering with family and all but it is a bit quite compare to last year or last few years. Is it because of me? I'm getting older and had enough of the eid celebration? I really don't think so. Surprisingly very few nenek or atuk in my kampung still giving me duit raya! hahaha!! My mom said they are all rabun. (Maybe, cos my younger sister tak dapat, hehe!)

I celebrated my first day of raya in Jasin, Malacca. As usual, we have all sort of rendang and ketupat which is different from Negeri Sembilan, they serve lemang and rendang daging. All the relatives, except for Pak Ngah & Family (they are in Putrajaya with their daughter who is in the hospital) and Pak Itam (who is in KSA) were here in Malacca. Unlike in Negeri Sembilan, we woke up at 6.30am (my mom being a mom huh...)

This year, I get a visit from my colleague. Thanks guys! Thanks for taking all the trouble and thanks for coming to my humble house, chewah! Maaf kalau terkurang, terkasar, termasin or termarah, hehhee!! They drove all they way to my hometown from KL. I could not ask for more...I'm deeply touch and appreciate all the sacrifice they make. Thanks a lot! (Btw, Jac there is no rendang udang for raya and I don't think it is ever existed)

I wanted to post the pictures I have (tho' only a few cos my camera rosak tengah jalan, huh! Benci betul!) but I guess it will be delay.

As for second day of raya, we ('we' means me and my sisters) are off to my dad's hometown in Juasseh, Negeri Sembilan. Same ol' same ol', same house, same routine and same biscuit!

To avoid traffic, we drove back to KL on 3rd day of raya. Oh, what a wonderful empty road...

As I said earlier, this raya is a bit quiet. Is it because of the finacial crisis? The political crisis? Or the food crisis? Which I don't think so...hurmmm...why ah? Tell me why?

.:: Selamat Hari Raya ::.

For all my fellow friends, for whom I forgot and forget, for whom I leave behind, for my new and my future friends...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir & Batin

May you have a bless Ramadhan and joyful Syawal

Raya Sale! Sale! Sale!

Well for those who are in LURVE with branded goods especially Asprey, Boss, Bally, Coach, Jimmy Choo, Mont Blanc, Bvlgari, Chloe, Cartier and Shanghai Tang, please run run run to Millenium Hotel this 19th-21st Sept 08.

Valiram Group Malaysia's Luxury Goods Retailer is having SALE!

Malaysian...Are We?

I have not been updating my blog since forever. I think the idea goes away with the tiredness, moodyness and " i remember the pillow softness" during this ramadhan month.

Well, yes, this holy month should be celebrated and we should be bless during this holy month. And silly me, I am not suppose to complaint. Forgive me, god. I am just a normal human being who like to complaints and never satisfied.

Yes, I did think that. We never satisfied and we like to complaint. Not for certain things but EVERYTHING!. Instead of saying thanks, we complained, complained and complained and we always want a lot more....especially free things. See, I am complaining now about complaining.

Doesn't you think so? I think that is happening to Malaysian nowadays and quite frankly i am sick and tired of this political hu-ha happening now. For god sake people, we are Malaysian and we suppose to be one. Whatever, racist issue they are talking about now, is seriously not good and quite annoying.

For me, living in the country with a lot of different races, we need to accept other belief and flaws. Doesn't matter you are Malay, Chinese, Kadazan, Indian or etc, we are still Malaysian. I believe we have forget and even worst forget our identity. It is sad, sad to see the news and devastated when reading the newspaper...at one point I feel like I want to vaporise myself into the earth and pretend I did not know anything.

I hope we all will be bless in this holy month and I hope we will be Malaysian again. This is me being patriotic. This is me being Malaysian. And this is me being so sick and tired of all the things happening.

I have no idea

I have no idea. Nil. Nada. I need to lie down and think some thought.


I'll be back.


Shortly...

Dream can come true....

I'm watching Jimmy Kimmel live last 3 weeks. Guest appearance was Mariah Carey. My old post, I have mentioned that Jacq have give me M for Mariah for my birthday. I guess that was it. But, it was not...

She have new perfume in line. Can you imagine, new perfume? I was like, oh my I need no I must have this but already have a lot of perfume. It will be a waste! But it's Mariah for god sake! The new perfume called Luscious Pink...isn't it sexy?

Last 2 weeks, I went to Sogo with my mum. She needs to buy baju raya for my sis. (What's up with buying baju raya while we not even start fasting yet?) Well, Sogo having sales for Merdeka. And guess what, they are introducing Mariah new perfume too...I guess it's my destiny. I have to buy this perfume. But after torturing and nagging from my mom, duh! I think the destiny just explode and disappear. So it was not meant to be. But I must have it!!

Yesterday, after breakfast at KLCC my sister and me went window shopping. Shop after shop, Parkson after Isetan...and it's happening there. We went to Parkson for of course 'jalan-jalan' then I saw a light, a bright light in one counter. It's like when you saw something you want, everything else went pitch black. This is the same, it's like i saw light at the end of the tunnel. And there it was, there smiling at me, waiting for me to come.

Yes, I am now the proud owner of Mariah's Luscious Pink perfume and loving it!

P/S: Shhh....don't tell my mom...:)

Be strong, Kak Tura...U can Get through This

Remember I did tell you in my previous post that my cousin been diagnosed with cancer? Well, she suppose to have an operation to remove the cancer today.

Unfortunately, the cancer cell has spread to most of the place in her body and they have to cancel the operation and doctor said, there is nothing they could do but just wait. She is now coma and my mom tell me...her condition getting from bad to worse.

We can only pray and hope.

Dear God,

Help her get through with this pain

Help her to be strong

Help her to make it through

And god, if the pain is too much to bear

And she don't have enough strength to make it through

Please God,

Bless her and love her

Take her away easily with full of love

And if she's gone...

Oh dear god,

Give her family the strength to make it through

Give her family your blessing for the journey they need to go through without her

With that god,

We are bless to know that she will always be with you

Fill with your love

Amin...

It is definitely ON!

Please excuse my previous blog about Avril's concert as it is definitely confirm that Avril's concert will absolutely gonna be on this 29th.

Can't wait, can't wait....I'm so gonna be there.......*wink*

Fasting month...

Oh my god...I feel I just celebrate Eid few months back and what do you know? The fasting month come knocking at your door. This year, our fasting month might start on 1st September after National Day celebration. Thank god, at least for us yang dekat KL ni we are able to get 1 day off.

Alhamdulillah...another year of fasting and another year of blessing. Hopefully this Eid will bring more blessing and hopefully will bring more joyous to everybody.

I will be heading to Malacca to celebrate the coming of Ramadhan and at least I can start my fasting month at my mom's place. And where are your destination first of Ramadhan? Back to your hometown or just at home....

* Btw, went to Pulse last Friday with Hajar and guess who with us? Jengjengjeng....Farid Kamil......

Avril Lavigne, what's so SEXY?

I heard, I know and it's confirm that they are cancelling Avril's concert. Gosh, I'm actually looking forward to go, watch, see and be at the concert. This is the first time she gonna come here, it's like a big deal...for me tho'

I don't understand...S.E.X.Y? What is it so sexy about Avril? The cloth, the hair, the voice, the overline eyeliner or the makeup? I really don't understand...what kind of sexy they are talking about? It is not good for the teenagers? There's a lot of other things in this world can be a bad influence to the youngsters, we have TV, radio and most of all the internet? But this concert? I did not get...Gwen Stefani is far sexier than Avril and she can still perform here. So how they rate sexy actually?

We live in multi racial country. We do not only have Malays, but we also have Chinese, Indian and others. Is this necessary? I don't know...It's all ridiculous

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, forgive me for my ignorance...

Yes, when you read my subject I guess you figure out what I'm trying to write about. I can say this last 2 weeks when people ask me about the price of goods and income as bla bla bla yada yada yada...I will say, is it? Ye ke? Tak adalah sangat...

But now, whoever it was... I tell you, you are absolutely 100% right. My oh my...it's not even middle of the month and I am officially B.R.O.K.E. How? How? How? Well, this time people who knows me will say...why? because you spend too much, that's y? But seriously, this month I did not spend at all...no, nada... last month? Yes, I do but this month? Nope except for few helai of kain to make baju raya that's it.

Strange, but, no but...it is seriously strange.

Ok, I know you know but I tell you, I don't even know.... Well, leave it at that...Move on

I called my mom last night, we were talking and suddenly she told me my cousin been diagnose with cancer. Oh my god, she is in her early 30's with one little girl. I was like, how come? Apparently, she always have problem with her stomach and one day it became worst and when she went for check up, it has been confirmed.

I pity her. She is a very nice girl. Nice and lovely couz indeed. Although, we do not have a lot memories together as I am closer with her brother but she is still my cousin. My flesh and blood. We have slightly the same blood, ok?

I sympathize her. My pray is with her. I hope all the best for her and trust me, god is always by her side.

Kak Tura, I wish you well. I hope everything will work out great and I hope you will be strong for your self, your family and for everybody. Believe me, we will always pray for your wellbeing and god have plan for everybody including you thus he knows the best. Keep on praying and hoping and never lose one. Amin.

I really do hope everything will work out great...oh god, bless us and bless our prayer...

Sob...Sob...

Life is boring, I am nearly dead, I am dead bored

Give me some work, give me problem to solve, I need one!

Yesterday, on the radio. I am not a radio fan actually but early in the morning inside the car with your half concious moody sister. (Yes, my sister sometimes do have blizzard in her head? Sometimes? No actually most of the time...:p Sorry Nana) Your best companion is a radio after 10 second acquitances with your newspaper auntie.

My oh my...I really need to stop crapping and get straight to the point.

They are talking bout secret. Biggest secret in your life you have never tell anysoul. One guy called up, if I'm not mistaken the name is Hakim or maybe Hakimi?

OK...He is talking about his secret. He is getting married this weekend and guess what? Not with his girlfriend but other girlfriend. My oh my! There is a lot of opinion and a lot of get over it wishes but for me...

Only one thing, that guy is a total jerk! Seriously, how could he do that to someone who he admit he loved? How dare he do that? Did he think he can get away easily? To that girl, life spins like wheel. One day we will be up and the other day we will be down so, maybe this is his time but you will also have your time. Be a little patience and remember god is fair.

How I am bless without this headache happening in my life. But, hey! Life without problem would be damn bored innit?

Till We Meet Again, Pak Itam...

I did write in my previous post that my uncle will be going to Jeddah for his new job. Well, he'll be going definitely but not as planned, it is a week earlier...like tomorrow, August 13,2008.

This post is exclusively for him.

Take care my dear uncle, till we meet again someday, insyallah... I will try to be there but if I could not make it all the best and my pray goes to you. Send us update everytime and please please please...keep your blog updated so I have something to tell everybody bout your life there.

I am excited, as excited as him, maybe more. I am happy for him tho' of course a bit sad but hey, it is for the best. We have always find a way to be better and to be better means to leave your family, so be it!

I wish him all the best and hope luck is always on his side....

For Pak Itam....our love will be with you where ever you are. May god bless your journey and most of all your dream.

Pak Itam, You must Love Me! - Nuffnang Gift Ideas

OK...OK enough talking bout the postpone event. Now one thing, I ought to do after delaying for so long. Nuffnang Gift Ideas contest...I have to do this and hopefully win this so I can give it to the person.

Well, my gift idea will be a Canon Digital Video Camcorder DVD DC220 for my loving, caring and adorable uncle well not that adorable but bolehla...(puji lebih sikitkan, mana tahu...hehehe)

Pak Itam.

Well, I decided to give the cancorder to him not because I don't have anybody elso to choose from but merely because he is flying away to the middle east (again, middle east?What's up with that?) If i'm not mistaken Jeddah...betulkan??? Yes, he is gonna fly this month and yes, obviously I can't get to give to him on time if I win this but...

Yes, but his family will stay here for few months before he settle down so I still have the chance to give the camcorder to him, if...if...if.... I win this (which, I hope hope hope and really hope I will)

I tried to find laptop, so he can always update his blogs but I can't seem to find suitable laptop for him and taken to account not all my auntie or uncle or my atuk and nenek have internet at home or IT literate...so I decided best to give him the camcorder so he can record whatever he is doing and make a short movie blog and post it to us so we can watch together...while missing him of course.

Yes, Pak Itam of course we gonna miss you...us celebrating hari raya without one of our uncle means short of duit raya hehehe...no meaning short of one feeling...as you can always do money order or remit the duit raya to us...:)

So I hope, with this not very lengthy but lengthy for me blog, I could win the gift I intended to gift to my uncle as mind you...he is gonna stay god knows how long in Bahrain and also god knows how long we gonna be able to meet him.

How I wish Jeddah just like KL-Jakarta, so the air ticket will not be so damn pricey. Any sponsor for the airticket??

Help Me!!!

I have been given a task most likely a new job. In 3 months I have to prepare the artist activities including radio interview and most importantly, the press that will be coming to our 2nd press conference.

Oh, god! I kinda have to use my limited resources of finding ways to find a suitable radio station and TV station that can interview this artist and most likely to invite the press to come to our press conference for this event.

The PC for the 1st event, due some miscommunication there only a few media attended. I am hopeless, lifeless and brainless...well leave the brainless part cos I still think I have some braincell left.

I have to keep telling myself I can do this, I can pull this through and I seriously need to get up and get it done!

Ziryab Postpone?

Hi all....

Those who have been to the first concert, how is it? Despite the delay, I think the show is not disappointing tho' some of the fans attitude is driving our security up to the wall. Let us leave the 1st event.

As for the 2nd even, most of you know it will be today however due to some urgent matters with the artist, we could not make it today.

Yes, Ziryab been postpone to after eid. Don't worry, we will still have the same artist tho' not the same date.

Hope to see you soon!

Middle East My View

Exhaustion...I am truely really tired. Last night, we finish work almost 2 am and tonight? I have no idea.

This is all because of the event. This is all because of it. Well, hopefully all worth while though we belive it is.

Despite all the headache we gone through, the artist will definitely arrived tomorrow morning. When I said morning, it really is very early morning. Around 6am. You could not believe how far people can be when they know they are celebrity. Eventho' they might be famous around middle east...but well you can't blame there middle east is really is a mass market. Compare to Malaysia, duh!

As a Malaysian, I will say I rather impress with their voice. Yes, the male singer especially they might not have the face, but the voice....well Hussain Al Jasmi especially. He really have that golden voice. The voice you wanted to hear while tuck yourself in at night, the voice that is wow! compare to the rest. Well, this is only my 2 cent thoughts after listening to his song almost 8 hours everyday.

And for the female, yes, most of them Lebanese (well, the one I know and the one we bring in) and yes most of them have whole lot of surgery done and yes, they indeed are too beautiful and oppsss...sexy. Well, yes they are revealingly sexy. But of all that, they have the voice. The manja-manja voice. I bet most guys like them because of this. Who doesn't huh?

But at least this experience have open my eyes to other music culture, if last time I thought middle eastern music is mostly nasyid or same as most Malaysian thought that middle eastern woman suppose to wear hijab at least now, we can open our eyes and look at middle east differently.

For a start, no not everybody wear hijab and no, you are not required to wear the abayya or hijab when you visit middle east. And yes, they sing modern song and not only nasyid and yes, not all middle east is muslim.

I'm actually still in the office and steal a bit of my time writing this blog.

As the terms is stealing, I need to go and to do the unfinished business I have waiting for me....Till then...

Ziryab is nearer

I have wrote before about this event and well the acceptance is quite encouraging. For you middle eastern artist or music lovers out there, grab your chance. We don't always have middle east artist coming, that's for sure.

If you all still thinking, grab your chance while it last. For sure it will be most memorable event of the year.

And 1 more important thing, the ticket is seriously cheap compare than their concert tickets in middle east. What you waiting for then?

Come, let's celebrate together...

Event I
Date: 1st August 2008
Artist: Rola Saad, Hussein Al Jasmi & Toni Qattan
Venue: Planery Hall KLCC
Ticket: RM150-RM400

Event II
Date: 6th August 2008
Artist: Nawal Al Zoghbi, Abdullah Rwaishid & Mayssam Nahas
Venue: Planery Hall KLCC
Ticket: RM150-RM400

See you there....

Fly Away

I indeed need a really long break. Yes, I need a break. I need to fly. Fly somewhere, anywhere, anyplace. I'm dead bored...

I'm tired and yes, I get bored doing something seriously really easily. I want to get away. Oh, please...For the past few days I've been browsing, surfing, go through all possible website in the internet. To dream...dream that I could fly to someplace nice and get away.

I really need to get away...I need to breath new air. Seriously, I've been to Indonesia last few years but I do feel I want to go there again this year. Any suggestion? Why? Well, it's indeed a nice place although the traffic jam is a killer during peak hours and the amount of people in the street trying to sell you something is actually quite annoying but I do enjoy my stay there.

Simply because, everything is cheap cheap cheap especially the shopping...Oh, and not only in Jakarta the other best place to shop, shop, shop is also in Bandung. It is nice, nice, nice. Most likely, Jakarta is my place again this year...well most likely.

Gosh, I do hope I can fly there now...be away from the hectic things in my life...Please let me get away...please, please, please...

Ziryab 2008 Definitely...

Remember I did write about this event in my last blog? Remember I did not told you guys who are the artist coming? Remember? Remember?

Do you guys still look forward to this event? I know I do...well the date is fix now. 1st August and 6th August in KL Convention Centre (same venue like last year) but the different is we don't have dinner this year only concert.

OK...OK... This time I'll tell all of you who is the artist...Wait...Wait...The artist are

Nawal Al-Zoghbi

Hussein Al-Jasmy

Rola

Toni Qattan

Mayssam Nahas

Abdullah Al Rowaished

Penang

Dear fwens....

I know..I know..it's more than a month (maybe two?) but I can't help the lazy disease that attacking my body now.

Today, I gather all the strength to save this picture.

Here goes the link...http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b143/ezany_malek/penang%2008/

Sepi...

Sepi, I have not get a chance to watch this Malay movie which I heard the best for this year. Well, I don't know. I have to see it for myself to believe it.

Talking about sepi, which is loneliness in Malay have a same quite the same meaning with everybody. Sometimes, people like to keep themselves away from other just because they comfortable in being a loner.

I'm a loner. I like to be lonely. Loneliness is me. I feel at ease when I am alone.

No, it is not because I'm better than anyone but it is just simply that I am no longer can accept all the hypocrite, self centred people in this world. It annoys me and sometime I feel like shutting myself out of this world. I feel like building my own world. Away, far away from anybody.

But, I am not god thus I force myself to accept. To accept that there is nothing we could do to change human behaviour. You just have to accept it and live with it. That's it.

That is why, I choose to keep myself to be sepi...

I fell in love!

While doing what I do best, browsing and wasting my time...hehehe! I came accross this song and I fell in love with this song.

I know, I know, you will tell me it is an old song but hell, since when love know it is new or old? I try to find this song high and low. See, how rajin am I today?

As today I'm a bit rajin...I wanted to share this song with all of you (if anyone ever read my blog) Here goes,

Craig David - Don't Love You No More

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Frankie J- Don't Wanna Try

Oh, Frankie J...please don't hate me. I force to do it.... Please forgive me! It's all because of Jacq! Wawawa!!!

Jacq, please appreciate my sweat and tears of finding this song for you...:) hmmm...you can show your appreciation by buying me Avril tickets???? Can? Can? Can? *Manja-manja smile* :)))

Mp3 file - Frankie J

Shayne Ward-Breathless

It does not mean that I support piracy. I force to do this just because Jacq need this song...I mean really desperate for this song. Being the nice, kind and loving sister I always been. I have downloaded this song for her.

Jacq, what you waiting for...grab it and satisfy your thirst! hehe!

http://www.savefile.com/files/1624840

Ziryab 2008?

Hi all...

Well, well, well...I admit, I have been lazy, in fact too lazy that I don't write for quite some time. And I start to miss blogging, though not that much hehehe!

Well, maybe most of you thought what is Ziryab. It is the event organised by the sister company I'm working now. I'm actually in shipping company whilst there is one more company doing 100% event and entertainment. Strange isn't it?

Last year was a blast! We have flown popular and vast singers from middle east and 3 concert was held in KL convention centre. Nuff said, if you all need additional info, you can always browse thru our website

http://www.ziryabfest.com/

This year? Of course it will be as vast as last year. Nope, it will be more than that! It will be a bomb! Want to see which artist will be coming to KL? Sorry, tho I know but it will be a surprise! Can't tell...:)

Event only a month away...very very near...very very very very near. Can't wait! Hehehe!

For all of you who in love with middle eastern artist, don't forget to check this event out. I guarantee you...you will not regret!

Can't wait to have fun! Fun! Fun!

P/S: Of course...we also will be having 5 star malaysian artist...muah!

Lies...

Lies? Does it worth it? Is it worth risking your job, life for a miserable lies? Who is in the right state of mind would do that?

I have encountered few situation where people have to lie cause of no reason. None! And in return, they start losing everything in life. One after another. Yes, truth is always painful but it is the truth! And for saying the truth, you will earn people's respect. Well, maybe before that some of them will start whatever unpleasant things as a human being. But it is the consequences have to be taken. For me, I believe in saying the truth. If need be, I'll lie but maybe white lies...usually it is always end up with the truth.

Whatever they call it, an excuse, escape a lie is still a lie. It is just a plain way to cover mistakes. Be a man about it and face the truth, I'm sure there will be a better way that lead to a better life.
But, will there be? Will there be a day that human stop lies? It is human nature, we will lies. Mind you, this is not about small lies that will just flies. This is a big, huge, bombastic lies. Believe me, I heard and see how big and huge lies people can do. It is so humungous until there is no way covering it up.

I'm stunned, in awe. I need to breath fresh air. Why? Why? How come? All the question, all the curiosity, everything. I need to know why? But how I know, it is not lies I will get. How? So, I accept and let it be. Maybe it run in his dead red blood, maybe it is in his soul, in his vein and most of all in his genes.

So much so, I wish him all the best, best of the best in his poor sad life. Hope he learn something. A lesson. A precious one. Hope he open his eyes and pray for forgiveness. I do hope time on his side and he still have the chance to do that.

Believe me, I'm not lying....

Truly, madly, deeply

I am officially in love. I am truly, madly, deeply in love. It is so adorable and wayyy irresistable. I have to have him. I know i have to have him...no I MUST have him. I must, I have, I have, I have!!!

But how? How if the others get jealous? How if they fight?

Aren't they adorable? They are! OMG, if I could have them....abah puhleasee!!!

For more cute and adorable angels...visit http://www.isleypersians.com

Thanks to its founder neth! Cheers to all adorable and very irrisistable angels you have, Neth!

Penang...

We have extra cuti on Wesak day. Cannot go back to Malacca. My mom busy with her 'family' meeting. Tah apa yang sibuk sangat nak dimeetingkan...we make a decision....

Penang, here we come!!!!!

Nice place, well tho' not that very very very very exciting but the idea of holidaying with friends. We make it memorably exciting journey, lostness and tiredness. Everything in one...it makes it enjoyable.

Picture...still in the camera. I'll definitely post it once I have the time.

Now, just read my above craps and thots!

Do I ?

First, I have to admit. I am not a good writer. Yes, I am totally not! oh, how I wish I could just write something. Something so simple but meaningful, interesting and just me. I don't know. Am I pushing myself too hard? Or it is just me? Do I need to have Einstein brain just to write? To jot down a piece of thought here and there? I believe, I just need to use a little bit more of creativity. But can I find it in me? Do I have it?

Sometimes, I want to write and I even logged in the blog page but suddenly everything gone. It's just gone. I can't even write my own essay. I can't elaborate points, I can just stick to one point and that's it. Oh, help me god! I even failed my thesis because of this! My lecturers have written the same thing on all the essay I've done. No, it is not only one lecturer...it is three!!! Yess, three!

I want to crack open my brain and peek inside. See if I am able to repair anything, but well I am a human being...Idiot!

But, the best part is...I do not lost my hope. It's still there, high on the pedestal. I know someday, somehow, I will do it! I know I can.

Can't you just admire my determination?

But, do i ...will i still have the same spirit when the moment came?

Just Wait...

Feel like blogging but maybe a bit late....Just too tired to type! Hell, wait a bit late...I'll post something up. Promise...

Just that

Last week been a very tiring week for our office. We have moved office not far just one more level up. Previously it is 1 unit and now becomes 2 units including our sister comany who will be doing production and entertainment. Nothing that I can elaborate. Nothing to share now.

Moving, everybody needs to make a move in life. We move when everything get static or doesn't even move. We moved when we are bored. We moved forward, backward and everyway we can. We move to be better and we moved because we must.

I believe when we move something in life it is for the better. I believe we moved because we want to get better and be better.I have moved, a lot of time infact. I know damn well, my life is better now because the move I made in previous days.

I have enjoyed from the morning till dawn, dawn till dusk. I have done that. I have live a life with nothing to do. Just sit at home, go out, have fun, and same thing again and again for three years. I have wasted my father's hard earned money a lot of times and I never regret.

But it's all in the past, I have moved since then. I am not proud of the life i had before but at least i know, when I'm old, I will not think "Shit, i shud've done that". Yes, I have wasted a little bit of my life but I am satisfied for I can now be me. What I am today.

At least I know now, it is time for me to sit at home, watching TV, laugh at my family stupid jokes, cries when there are need to, be there whenever it is good and bad times. I am not anti social but I choose to be one. I have gone through a lot of pain and bad times till i feel like I don't need any friend now and I don't have to trust my friends. All i need is my family. They will surely be there when I need then the most, vice versa.

Yes, I know I've been mean but no. I don't believe such things as loyal friends. No matter how close people be, there will always be things that they will not tell you, things that they kept as a secret and when you know, it will hurt you. Most of the time from someone else.

There are alot of hypocrites in this world. I know now how careful people be they will somehow step on something they trying to avoid.

For that, I have to be extra careful living in the world full of disguise, hate and greed.

It's just that...

Moving on

No, it has nothing to do with life. We are moving upstairs to 10th floor today. My office not my house...update later. Ciao!

Work wok!

I'm in the office, busy as a bee and still have time to write this? No, I lied. Yes, I am suppose to be busy working my ass off. Settling this shipment issue. Didn't I tell you I work in shipping industry?

Yes, I do. In fact my dad, my 2 brothers also working in the same industry. It's stressful but interesting yes, it's interesting stressful kinda way. I work 5 1/2 days every week without off day. The off day I had only on Sunday. And yes, I stayed back in the office sometimes up to 2am. But not always.

And no, I am not workaholic. I just have to do what I'm suppose to do. This is a lesson to all the youngsters, it is actually not easy to get money. You have to work your ass off to have something to eat. My, my...I'm that old, I'm actually lecturing to youngsters?

Ok, cut the crap short... I just stop by to say hi to my blog but I end up writing few paragraphs. So I'll stop here cause I really need to get back to work.

Until then, I'll be back for more! :)

Blog Hopping...The Red DiVa?

Despite all the workload, I still try to steal sometime to do one thing I sumtime love doing...blog hopping. It's nice to read about someone...some other person that you didn't know. That is not your friends or your family but someone out there. Who live their lives in the same world but maybe differently. Who have the same thought or different things to say.

It's fun to at least know about somebody and someone at least once in a while for a change. I am maze on how people can make money using their blog. It's the best way to earn a living while doing something you love. You just have to write about yourself, your life, your thought, your hope and voila! somebody really paid you for that. I might not be the one...I can't write well maybe craps and I am lazy to think about what to write, even I'm not lazy to think but i will be lazy to type...duh!

Despite all the popularity and the publicity (blame me cos not being up to date!) I came accross to this one blog. Which by the way, is a hit among all the bloggers and even have its own publicity with the media.

Written by a gorgeous mom with 2 kids who love no...crayzeee about the colour RED. The blog is red, not only that the house, the clothes and mostly everything bout her is red. I applaud her, for writing about something she love, writing about whatever she thinks worth to write and writing bout something that cross her mind. I applaud her for that. There might be some people who could not understand her writing. Not because she wirte bombastic words but because the language she use are mostly malay words. I applaud her for that too, for using the mother tongue and proud of that. One thing bout this hot momma, keep on writing, keep on doing whatever you are doing. It surely give you a lot!

People, come and cherish her blogs...(If you never come accross before)

http://redmummy.com/

I know you will love it, just like me! :)

Past Happenings!

I know...I know...I'm supposed to post myt dad's B'day pics here. Don't blame me! Time just jealous of me! I don't even have time to update my pitiful blog...:(

Ok...here goes! We celebrate daddy b'day in Nelayan Seafood Restaurant. Nice and well, I like it. It's not a posh place or the greatest place in KL but it's ok..Food was ok and price was reasonable.

Thanks to all who make this surprise a blast! I am not a very patience person. I try to upload the pic but it seems extrociously slow so please direct yourself to this link. You can find all the glory here.

http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b143/ezany_malek

Oh...B.O.O.red...

I am feeling restless, I hate me, my job and I feel I am depressed but I am not sure. Is it depressed or bored to death.

Everyday I have the same life routine, every single day ...well except for weekend, at least!. I am bored, really! I can puke but I may not realise because I am too bored. Or maybe the world is going upside down and I am still not realise cause I am too bored. Really bored with my every weekdays routine.

I wakes up at 6.45, shower and get dress. Arrive office at 8.00, bfast and start working at 9-6 with the same ol boring stuff, write e-mail, get shout, shout at people, on the phone, not on the phone, write e-mail again, meeting, meeting, meeting, get shout again...bla bla bla....bluekkkk!!

Please someone, hear my pain and cries...please give me non-boring well paid job so I can have my life back...I am totally bored, I could kill a doll and I thought it's bleeding...

*yawning*

You know what I don't deserve this...my life was not this shitty boring everyday same ol' boring day...I have a very cheery merry life...what happened???? I decided to put it behind and i forgot to took it back...It makes me now a misreable depressed boring shitty head woman..

*yawning*

too bored to type about this boring topic

chiao!

Hi?!?!

I know, I know, I know...There, I done it again...I know I have this blog and I know the promise to keep the blog updated and all but I failed...I get caught in the big bloating spiderweb and I can't get out. I'm stucked!

I wish one day not just 24 hours, I wish it will be more...

22/3/08...Yes, it's daddy's birdday...daddy's hatching day. 2 of my siblings and of course me...planned something and I think we planned it beautifully as the b'day boy is really surprise. I'm happy and excited...Most of the family is there including my grandma..Thanks wan for making it this far, love you to bits!

I suppose to upload the pic but eventually it is still in the camera so maybe next blog...WEll, for my day...I know he will never read this but in case he suddenly crossover this blogs or accidentally lead to this blogs...

I wish him all the best and all the success in everything he do and I thanked him for all the time he was there for us, all the time he save us and all the time he cared. I wish him luck and best of the best the world could bring. Most of all, I wish he may always be under god blessing and he showers with god's love. On behalf of the family, he knows that we always and forever love him.

New Government??

I know, i know...it's been a loooong while. As I wrote in my 1st blog, I am lazy, lazy, lazy so lazy I actually did forgot about the existence of this blog.

As world know, we just finish our 12th election on the 8th of March 2008 and personally, it was devastating to see the fall of BN legacy in this nation. As much as I love BN, as much as me being the avid supporter, I actually agree that we need second voice, other opinion in the parliament or to rule a democratic nation. I think it is the right time to wake people up, as we have been sleeping and being complacent for too long. This is the time to buck up and start over.

I am not the obsessed supporter but I do love my country and I am totally stand for what's right for this country.

Enough of me being patriotic, just to let everyone in this whole wide world knows that although we have been hit with election Tsunami or opposition have 'landslide' won the 5 baby states and the share market drops tremendously yesterday, we are still doing great. Peaceful and harmony like we always do...same as before election. We are still the same multi racial Malaysian despite our diffrences in our parties.

So, please do not believe all the speculation or romours, we are still the same ol' Malaysian with new government...:(

Gumbira....

I think it's quite sometime I don't bother about the existence of my blog. This week full of love, joy, tiredness, busyness and sometimes horrifying scenes of shouting and frustration. All of this, have stole my time. My time to day dreaming and sometimes even dream, ZZZzzzZZZ...

Everything aside, let me share what happen on Thursday. Yes, Thursday was my birthday, the most anticipated day, the getting old boring alone day. Yes, I am a year older on last Thursday. Thanks to all my dear friends and families who wishes me.

I have been longing to buy M by Mariah perfume since the perfume first lauch but I haven't got the time to go perfume hunting. So I just keep my dream in far far away land. Tuck it nicely in my pillow. Just let it be a dream...nice huh!

Lucky enough I have a very understanding cum outstanding cum extravaganza sister who always remember bits and pieces about me...and she actually bought me the perfume...yes the perfume!!! The M by Mariah perfume...the dream, blow me away perfume i have been longing nite and day...I luv you!!!! (Yes, to my sister, my boss, my shouting partner, my friend and my taiwanese colleague)

And now...I'm the proudest owner of M by Mariah....awesome...just awesome!

Picture below taken when we were having our dinner at The Apartment at The Curve. There's no word could describe how thankful I am to found someone like you guy/gals. You are the light that lit up my way, like the walking stick for a blind man. Thanks you all, thanks a million for spending your precious time with me. I am proud to have a friend like you.

Special thanks to Jacq, thanks for being my shoulder to lean on, when I needed the most, thanks for always remember, thanks for always being at the right place at the right time, thanks for your patience to put up with me and my wind-head, thanks for being stubborn, thanks for the energy, enthusiasm and spirit you always show whenever wherever, thanks for sharing and caring and thanks for the concern when nobody cares. And thank you especially for the guidance and believe you have in me and everybody. You are a star...special star for us...you are IRREPLACEABLE!