Wedding Daze III

Well, merisik dah selamat dah on 17/1/09. Though a lot has not been finalised but at least we have met the family. What more? We have quite a few happy news...

* Solemnisation will be done in Malacca. Yes, who would've thought my mom change her mind. This is all because of nenek. Persuading her non stop. Kudos to nenek. So, yes...solemnisation will be in my mom house on 30th May 09
* Wedding ceremony will be done in Tun Rahah (initial plan) on 5th June 09
* There might be another ceremony in our Negeri Sembilan hometown. (Only a plan, not confirm yet)
* As for groom, ceremony will be done in Anjung Felda one week after our kenduri.

Well, for now I will be busy settling all the bits and pieces that need to be settle. Need to check flight tickets to Jakarta soon...

N.B. Don't worry, Mak Itam we will post the card here. Btw, will you all be attending? Or still there? Kem salam balik kat Pak Itam, k...

Kak Tura...You'll be missed

Remember I did write about my cousin who suffered cancer stage 4? Well, at 4.15am Sunday Jan 11, 2009 she lost her fight. Kak Tura has met with her creator that day, al fatihah.

She has fight well and our pray is with her all the way.

Kak Tura, you will be missed.

Wedding Daze II

I have not posted my new year blogs and believe me, I have lot of things to talk about for my new year postings. But my heart been calling me to write about this first. I have been mentioning and publishing about my excitement of my sister wedding to the whole world. Well at least to the messenger, friendster, facebook and blogging community which I think nearly whole world populations. :)

We are indeed very excited. My little sister...my cute small little sister that
I used to pick a fight with, that I can't be near with (well for at least 17 years of my life). Thanks to the grown up brain and the difficult life we had, my sister now is the closest sister, friend and companion I ever had. We shared everything (yes, everything) together. I must admit that sometimes her "blizzard" mood sometimes makes me wanted to kill her...

I'll be lying if I said I was OK with the thought of letting her go to life her own life. I'll be lying if I said I am OK now. I am actually not but I'm trying to accept things the way they suppose to be. I know I'll lost somebody, there will be nobody to accompany me at home, to pick a fight with, to tease with. I know I will somehow miss her voices and shout whenever she is bored or whenever she is trying to make a god damn awful singing voice and most importantly cruising together with her or even spend our holiday together. I will also be lying if I said I did not shed a single tears while I'm writing this.

But, of all the things, of all the pain of letting go... I believe I am letting her go to someone worth, I know he could take care of her the best and I know he is the right one for her. And I believe she find happiness with him but I want her to know that I will always be there. I will always be her wings that will protect her from any harm and I will always be her best sister for now and always will be...

In my previous post, I have mentioned about the hard headed mom we had. Well, as what we have expected after all the persuasion...she still with her decision, she will not give a damn about this wedding. I sometimes wonder, what kind of mom Ihad? I know I'm not suppose to have this thought. I'm soory. Well I actually love my mom even how bad things are but to do this? I know she is after one thing, for sure but I will not reveal what it is.

For god sake, I really hope she change for the best or she could end up being a misery old lady where nobody will appreciate like someone I know. Guess, it runs in her blood. I am so pissed right now, though I know I'm not suppose to. But, I need someone to put some sense in her brain for once!

Oh, god...please forgive me...

Friday is quiet...

Today is Friday, December 26th 2008. For those celebrated Christmas yesterday, hope you enjoy every moment of this season of giving.

I must say, even though I am not celebrating Christmas, watching the movies during Christmas day I have been influence on the existence of santa. Wonder where I'll be put in this year, naughty or nice list?

Isn't it nice to have a santa that can give you everything you dream of? Be it a barbie or a huuuuuugeee teddy bear that you could not even hug. But of course, there is no santa and there is no man entering your house through the chimney except if you have a chimney that can fit a man you might woke up with a burglar inside your house.

I wish life is as simple as that. I wish life is just beautiful wheneve we wake up in the morning. I wish life is easy peasy. But no, life is not beautiful and we could not expect we woke up every morning with fresh breath, beautiful smile and without hangover from last night drinking.

Life is full of lies, jealousy, manipulation and selfishness. We must admit even the nicest ol' goody two shoes have this bad attitude stashed in their heart. I admit, I do have this and I believe everbody has. It only a matter whether you want to show it or not.

I wanted to leave 2008 by remembering all the sweet little things that happen and I wanted to throw every single bitterness behind. I know, it is impossible to forget but at least I want to store it somewhere and hoping I could forget about it forever.

I will post a blog about new year but not in this blog. This blogs was written out of boredom and sleepless night I have for the past few days. Am I imsomniac?

Wedding Daze...Puzzled?

I'm so in the mood for wedding. Well, fortunately not for me but for my beloved sister. Yes, it is still a long way to go. It planned to be in June next year but the feeling is already here, NOW!

Wawa and me have taken the responsibility to organise the wedding. Not that we have a lot of experience but we are trying. We want the wedding to be simple but memorable thus the song choice of course also important to make the guest feeling that they also in love.

We were in Dewan Tun Rahah yesterday observing the venue and what I can say, if the ballroom is the chosen one. I have no complaint. It is absolutely stunning and so kena with our theme.

We want the wedding fill with flowers, candles and love...I'm writing like it is my wedding but my sister have given me her whole trust to organise her wedding that she is accepting all of our suggestions. Thank god, I don't have a fussy sister.

Well, this is the first sibling who is getting married hence that's why it is so....happening!!

Well, there's one problem. Only one but a major one! As some of you readers might know, my parent have divorce for the last 10 years. Having a stone headed mom make us really in dilemma. This is the first family members getting married (our family) so it is important that my mom attend that celebration. But as most of the friends, family and also groom family in KL we decided the event to be in KL instead of her hometown.

I think this is fair since the nikah performance will be in Malacca her hometown. But, NO! She could not accept this. She want everything to be in Malacca which is now not fair for the other side of family, my dad! She even saiid that she will not be attending the wedding because of this. Btw, my brother engangement day was held in Malacca which is sadly, my dad has not been informed. Sad, isn't it?

It is so sad and devastated to see my sister have to go through this situation and it is sad that my mom did not put herself in her situation. Financial wise and feeling wise.

For me, you have been divorce, yes! Your heart broken, yes! but it was 10 years ago for god sake. Fine, if you could not forget about it. But is it fair to make your child a victim. I think this is what they say, when parents divorce the children will be the victim.

Compromise is always needed. Yes, we understand her feeling but she too need to understand about my sister feeling. I am sad and devastated. We have tried a lot but we still could not see the way out. I hope somebody or anybody can tell me what to do!!!

My sister need our mom to be there and to open her heart for once...

I'm stuck at the dead end road.