Rambling Mumbling

Today is first day at work after new year...Yes, still same old place, same old chair, same old desk well everything still old except it's a brand new year. This year, I got to do different territory. Different countries and time to say good bye to Indo-China shipment since I am now moving to India, Korea and Taiwan. In case anyone wondering what did I do... I am handling export documentation for one of the biggest paper manufacturer in the world. I did not mentioned the biggest but it is one of the biggest. Truth is, I am not sure if we are the biggest some say yes. Well whatever...

I have been handling Indo-China market for almost 3 years and I am excited on my new territory but I feel I'm so attached to my previous territory I have problem letting it go. Oh yes, I have major problem of letting anything go not only this but most of the things in my life. I guess I like the feeling of being attached to something. I feel like whenever I let go of something there is always that small dent in my heart or maybe a tiny weeny hole. It is tiny but it also feels empty. I'm being dramatic over this and it just so me.

Some said don't be attached to something cause when you lost it then you wont be hurt to bad.I guess that was true but who can control their feeling. Well one thing I know when you like something, it means you like something and when you don't then you don't. Who can stop their heart? I know I can't and maybe only selfish people can do that. just because they are selfish? I'm writing about my new territory and I am so failed in focusing I deviate my topic to something else.

I am actually done talking about work but one thing for sure I am still excited about this new territory things. I'm sure this is what I need after 3 years doing the same thing. I need something new, man! I am freaking bored out of my skull of doing the same thing. well don't get me wrong I love doing that territory but I need something new. I like new things. I always buy new things that is how I love new things and I know I'm gonna love this new territory I have. So new year, new territory, new country to explore and I know I'm gonna be a new person afterward. Well, hopefully.... till now I still have good feeling about this year. 

Oh, and I am so in love head over heels with this songs... love love love

Cambodia oh Cambodia -Choeung Ek Genocide Museum aka The Killing Field

Well let me start the first day of 2013 with my very post that I have put on hold for so damn long. I know I am suppose to write about it a long time ago but at least I'm doing it now kan? I am keeping my promises tho' well... never mind no excuses this time.

The 1st day...

Our 1st stop should be the Toul sleng or S21 prison however due to the some VIP visit on the same day the road to the museum was close for first half of the day therefore our tour guide decided that we visit Choeung Ek Killing Field first.

The entrance

This is a mass grave that place thousands of Cambodians that have been Pol Pot regime victims. This is where they have been buried alive after they have been torture in S-21 prison. Everyday there'll be truck load of victims being sent here to be killed. The whole tour was very heart wrenching and devastating. To see how a man trying to play god and take people lives in their hand. It is definitely an eye opener and it makes me realize my home country is not that bad at all.

Brief detail about this place

This is him... Pol Pot

I wish I dont see all the devastating sites, all the pictures, the place, the bones and even look at the mass grave. But this is what I'm here for and I tell myself I just need to endure and I am thankful I did what I did.

Our first stop is the museum and short movie about this place. What happen, how they did it and all the   torture the victims went through.

Pol pot believe everyone need to be equal hence the same uniform, hair cut etc. 

The skulls extracted from the grave with different method of killing

Some of the belongings recovered from the mass grave.Notice that little girl cloth in pink. 

Some of the victims pictures

Yes, the victims have been tortured in toul Selg prison @ S21 prison. They been brought here and tortured one more time before being buried alive and helpless.

Let's see where and what...no need my explanation. All the details is shown in the picture.

We walked through the entire place and there is still bone fragments on the ground. They unable to clear the debris as it is too much and it is impossible therefore all the bones, teeth or even victim cloth still visible on the ground.

Looking at the mass grave is totally heart wrenching. you can't help imagining the image of the victims waiting to be killed. It is more devastating when we arrived at the mass grave where they found woman and children naked. I keep thinking is it even possible for human being to act this cruel to another human being? well, I know it's possible now.

We end our journey visit the stupa which being build in memory to all those victims  Here is where they kept all the skulls the found in the mass grave. The skulls being place according to the age category and being place in few floors (i forgot how many floors were there)

Outside there's a small stall selling fresh coconut juice to quench our thirst after half day depressing tour.

Those young fresh coconut...

That's the end of our 1st visit of the day that lasted about half a day. When they said it's gonna be depressing, they are not lying. I am depressed and it is not even a day.